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“Karena itu, apa yang telah dipersatukan Allah, tidak boleh diceraikan manusia". Telah terucap janji setia dialtar gereja, dihadapan Tuhan, dihadapan pendeta, dihadap orang tua dan sanak saudara. Berjanji untuk tetap setia, tetap bersama, tidak akan boleh diceraikan oleh siapapun, sampai maut memisahkan” “Na olo do ho manganjuanju dohot hagaleonna, tung sura humurang parangena, jala na so tupa paulahonmu manang tadingkononmu ibana paima disirang hamatean hamu sogot? Molo naung sada roham mangoloi saluhutna I, dok ma: Olo” “Olo do ho mangkaholongi ibana sian nasa roham dohot marpangalaho na ture maradophon ibana dohot marparangehon parange na badia, paboa halak Kristen ho; jala na so tupa mahilolong ho manang tadingkononmu ibana, paima disirang hamatean hamu sogot ? Molo naung sada roham mangoloi saluhutna I, dok ma : Olo” Dung ditompa Debata  jolma I , didok Ibana ma : Ndang denggan sasada baoa I punjung, hubahen ma di ibana sada boruboru pangurupi di ibana b...

Understanding other is so important, but understanding your self is the first thing that you have to do.  If you are not understanding about your self you can't do that to the other people. Before you hate or judge someone,  please make sure that you have been really know about their life, about their strugles or their suffering. You have to know that there is no body perfect. Everyone have their own life no exception to you.  If you want to be treated well,  let's treat others well.  If you need other people understand you,  please you understand them also.  The most important thing you have to do first,  you have to understanding your self.  Than, it will feel light to understand others. And finally you can be happy to see other people happy.

It's not easy to change our mind when the selfishness is still be a queen in our heart. Will be there's a time when you feel your mind so crowded or it is in a mess.  May be you'll try to heal,  but finally you can't accept the fact that you actually failed to heal your own heart. How sad,  but that's the reality. The world is offering us everything.  It depends on us, what we want to take?. We often choose the wrong path. That finally leaves regrets. Regret makes you stressed, slumped and rebelled.  You can't change but you can't move forward.  Fights is rampant.  The fights can't stop because selfishness is a queen in the heart. 02.12.2019 18.59

01.01.2019 00.34 I am starting to write this blog to remind me how sad I am passed this time.  It doesn't mean that I don't wanna give thanks with all what the lord has done for my life, really I've done it. But it's all about my mistakes. An year has passed since I promised to my self that I will be better. But it such a failed and I'm feeling so frustrated. I am so bad.  I am the worst person ever. I couldn't do something right in my life and I am not good at all. Now this bad self want to screaming as if i have so  much suffer in this world.  Even a spirit that has been a long time sit on this body as if it feels suffer from everything that is so hurt.  I want to ask,  what should I do??   01.01.2019 00.46

In a group of numbers named year, was felt so much kind of feeling. Love, hate, angry, cry, happy, sad, hope, gave up came to me and filled my life. So many kinds of stories, when I didn’t understand about my feelings, I didn’t even understand what I have done. Who strengthen me, weaken me. Who maked me cry, maked me laugh too. I Love this year anyway. But we have to leave it and live in the new se ason and new greater year 2018 . 2017, I did so much mistake, and of course I feel regret. Hope I will never do the same mistakes in the next year 2018 . On the sideline between year, there was something strange and I   hope never did it again and never met it again. I hide the truth and told the lies. And now , the end of the year is telling me that I am not falling in love but I just wanna be loved. This end of year is realizing me that I can’t lie that I have had one love that will never changed. So much valuable lesson, so much story, so much time was spent. ...

I find a place so crowded. But I feel alone and suddenly so cold. It’s like Troupe of the wind comes and hugs me tightly. Tightly and sure like flock of the waves lick everything on the beach. Grasp s as full of vengeance and greed. I never meant to disturb the hives. Because I don’t wanna be hurted. I am too different for you. Even litters still got the prices and benefits. But I? I ask, Who prides me? My blood wads fastly, Really I am a skeptic one. I will and have always been so. But i t is not caused by goofy of me. I am not so. Actually, I have so much that I wanted to say. I just can’t tell because I am in a place where I shouldn’t go, the place where I never wanted to be…